AWOL

I’ve tried everything, I went to BH and told them I was gonna kill myself, told them I couldn’t do the army anymore, it’s driving me to suicide, went to 3 appointments and was given the adjustment disorder thing, got told my provider would talk to my command for a recommendation for separation. She just called my 1SG and said I wanted out and he said it was just because I’m new and didn’t want to listen to me. No recommendation, just getting screamed at by 1SG for not having a good coping mechanism. Tired and don’t know what else to do. Gonna go get my gun from storage. Advice please.