I wish I could do shifts with my partner.

Baby boy is 4 weeks old tomorrow. And I cannot sleep unless I’m beside him in his bassinet or we’re contact napping.

I trust my husband with my life… why in the world can’t I separate myself and get some rest??

My husband would gladly take a night shift and I just… I can’t. We tried and I just laid there and watched him feed little dude.

I couldn’t take my eyes off them.

I haven’t seen any posts about this so far so I’m curious to know if this is just a me problem.

I’m diagnosed GAD and PTSD (my childhood was less than ideal,) so maybe that’s a big part of it. My midwife has me on progesterone to curb the nighttime anxiety but I still can’t walk away.

So far it’s not detrimental. I’m mostly content. But I know I’m gonna wear out eventually.