Feeling irrationally guilty about interviewing for a job

I know this isn’t logical but I’m hoping someone can relate.

Currently a postdoc, and just not very happy. I’ve only been here a little over a year but it’s not been what I hoped and I think I’m just ready to not be poor anymore. I still think the science is objectively interesting but the idea of doing this slow paced bench work for 3-4 more years for pennies sounds miserable to me.

So I’m on a final stage interview for a lucrative medical affairs job at a pharma company. For the purpose of not making it awkward, I’ve obviously not mentioned this to my PI. So I keep getting these pangs of awkward guilt when I talk to him.

I know it’s just a job and he doesn’t really care about the fact I’m 30 years old and still putting groceries on credit cards, and thinks it’s just “part of the academic career path.”

But I can’t help the weird mindset that academia has burned into my brain that makes me feel like I’m doing something taboo and dirty by secretly going through this interview 💀