They don't care at all, right?

Yes this. I don't think they care at all. I wish my brain understood that years ago. :( I am literal trash on the floor and non existent and of no importance. It is like I don't exist, out of sight and out of mind. This is ok but I wish I had been smarter and understood this and not waited around for years. I wish I had experienced being with someone who loved me and wanted me when I was still as young as I used to be.