What experiences caused this phobia for you?
There’s 3 instances that have played into my phobia. There’s been more minor ones, but these are experiences I think about very often. I’m going to put a trigger warning here because it’s even triggering to me.
Second grade art class, we were gathered around a table for a demonstration and a boy got s* all over my back. I believe this is where my phobia really began.
Around the time I was 9, my sister had a loft bed, and she got the sb* one time off the side of it. My mom told me all about it, and now, 20 years later, I still think about it.
When I was 12, I was feeling ill and laid out on the couch in the family room, watching That’s So Raven. Show is still triggering to me. The n* came on quick and I v* on the floor and a little on my dog I was snuggling with. Then I walked in the kitchen and proceeded to v* on the floor. It was the most triggering sb* I’ve ever had, that’s stuck with me forever. My mom told me to try to drink some water, so I did, and ended up v* in the sink. The worst part is, I remember waking her and telling her I wasn’t feeling well and she told me I’d be okay. I remember being so upset she lied to me.
It’s crazy to think how triggering these memories can be, and how they can shape the rest of our lives. I’m 29 now, and haven’t experienced a crazy traumatizing event like these, aside from a sb* which truthfully wasn’t that terrible. I just wouldn’t wish this phobia on my worst enemy. However, currently trying to go through a form of exposure therapy and understand what has shaped my phobia. If you’re comfortable sharing your stories, I’d be happy to read them.