I’m broken and this is all I can think about.

I’m Bam, I’m 24 years old and originally from Appalachia Kentucky. I just got back from fighting in Ukraine for the past 6 months, I lost a eye and I lost everything here in the states, I lost contact with my girlfriend at the time after 2 months out, and I still haven’t heard from her, unfortunately, she moved on and I don’t have anything anymore. I’m going to be living out a back pack while I work at Amazon here in Idaho which is a long ways from where I’m from, but I’m planning on buying a Walmart bike and cargo trailer, plus tent and spare tubes and pump and hitting the road. I honestly have no idea what I’m doing but doing this will save my life, and I really mean that I’m in a really bad spot mentally and all I want to do is adventure and sleep under the stars. Any advice helps. but know I’m not going to be talked out of this because I really have no options left and I have no friends or family. I just want to feel something other than this pain. Thanks, and hopefully I can share this adventure with you all.