I don’t know if im happier as an atheist

Short story, i was a jehovas witness my whole life until i turned 15-18 because someone told me something too stupid to be true that made me change the switch on my head. First came the i’ve been lied to my face my whole life, then came the fear of death… i think ive been over that for a while, but i really upset about everyone reacting like im broken when i tell them im an atheist. And the other thing that keeps bothering me is thinking if my family somehow lears what i believe they are going to stop talking to me.