Late night overthinking and unable to take action due to fear of failure. What would you do?

Have to post this again due to it being removed as not being shown as a question!

Heyo! As per the title, I was just overthinking in the middle of the night right now. Why am I feeling like this?

I feel like I’ve lost so much and now feeling kinda lost at 31. Despite feeling very hopeful at the start of this year, I let my thoughts overwhelmed me.

Wanted to learn new skills but find it hard to focus and learn. Can’t help but thinking about the past of letting many things get to me and I feel useless and weak about it.

To be honest, I wish I could go back in time to my 20s again. I am a young millennial and I wish I could had been a gen z. I really enjoy interacting with them with their open minded nature.

Went for a psychology consult as per usual few days ago and the psychologist is really understanding and trying to help me but I feel like at times I am just letting people down and I am the only one going through all these.

Just done crying for abit earlier and as a man, it’s tough sometimes with the societal expectations to have to put up a tough exterior.

What’s your take and view on this?

Edit: Thanks for the encouraging comments and advice. Sometimes it just got over my head despite multiple times of telling myself it’s ok and I needed to let myself loose a little.

Not sure if anyone is into horoscope but this is my big 3:

Gemini Sun , Sagittarius Moon , Virgo Rising

It might explains why I am such a thinker and very mutable too xD

If any, I would love to make some friends and chat in here too