25 years may be coming to an end

We're one of the few highschool sweethearts.

I thought we'd grow old together. She got sick. Then I though I could support her well through her sickness. I managed to work hard enough to cover all the finances, but I neglected my own emotional needs and hers.

Now it all seems to be crashing down. She says she's miserable and desperate. That's made me miserable and desperate.

I wanted to be her hero and light of her life.

I ended up being the servant she hates.

I can't see myself without her. And while I expected to lose her to illness, I didn't expect to lose her to resentment and divorce.

We just started couples counseling. She's refused individual therapy. I know her pretty well after 25 years. I don't think she's going to change her mind. I'm preparing myself for the worst.

I don't even know what to ask of you all. Sympathy? Suggestions? The only thing I ask is no "tough love" please. I'm barely holding it together as it is.