Nobody cares

Of course nobody cares, because I don't either, so if I don't care about anyone, why should they care about me? That's the reason I stop myself from asking for help or talking about my feelings, because nobody cares, and I feel like an asshole when I realize that I wouldn't put the effort I expect from people to put for me, even though I like helping people emotionally, I do think I am an asshol that doesn't deserve complaining about anything. And it's okay, you don't HAVE to care, but I am reaching a point where I'm considering (and trying) disappearing for enough time so that someone tries to check on me and talk to me, because I can't seem to get people to care about me any other way.