I’m so sick of this rat race called life

What is the fucking point.

I’m 19 working a career. I’ve been working full time since I was 14 just to get ahead, I moved out at 17 due to family stuff and started providing for myself. Putting money away, working 50 hour weeks. Getting my ass to the gym, spending hundreds on healthy foods. All for what. To watch some of those healthy foods rot, to never be able to buy a house, to feel mediocre about myself, to work a career I love but be mocked and made fun of for my age by management? Life has a lot of good things, but oh my GOD I’m this close to moving to California, working at a grocery store and becoming a stoner.