Continuous anxiety about my PCOS induced facial hair.

I suffer from an anxiety disorder and unluckily with PCOS too. Every medicine has given me panic attacks. So I couldn't take any.

I'm managing my irregular periods, just fine. The thing which is giving me constant anxiety and my facial hair. They aren't a peach fuzz or normal facial hair it's a beard, if I'm being straightforward.

I shave my face daily as I'm a student and can't afford laser treatments. I put on BB cream on my face so my chin area looks smooth.

I've this constant anxiety about getting stuck in an emergency situation where I can't shave my face like in a hospital or something else. And when I get a partner in future. If we are just sleeping together and I wake up in the morning with a 5am shadow? What the hell am I gonna do then?

If there's some emergency what am I gonna do? My overthinking also exceeds further when I read romance books, smut and fantasy.

When the different situations are described for the female character, there's this anxiety in my mind that "If I was in that situation male character won't even pursue me because my facial hair would be visible."

For example, when characters are in a risky situation or its a dark romance book. I worry about this constantly.

I'm a hairy girl. But I'm conscious about my face a lot! I'm conscious about legs, arms, butt, stomach etc but my face takes the deal here.

Like if I'm in that fantasy situation, my hair would grow 😭 I'm sorry if this isn't making sense. I'm just so worried.

Just needed to vent a little.