i'm in depression ... can't GET OUT OF THIS LOOP

hey guys i really want some help i really do depression hachekom "nektni" well 3omri 22 sné , doub manjeht fel bac njeht b 11. habyt nakra fe iset . ... khater iset t3awni barsha fel kraya 'kolha pratique o ena yemchy maya ken pratique , théorique jemla andysh m3aaah barsha , anyway allah ghaleb t7atyt nakra "sc info" fel isi men jort wehd kali sc info rahy khyr o feha afe9 khyr mel iset , ama sc info test7a9 barsha nfas twiil adheka eli ena najmtoush jemla .. and i'm struggling right now mel jort math o system logique etc ... ake el subjects eli yest7a9oo tokhmem manysh behy fehom allahghaleeb o khdyt 6 moy... men jort lahkeya hedy o ena nadem aleha ltw !!! wallah chabeb ndaem makelnii NADEM NADEM NADEM NADEM alekher fe nhar netkayf krybet bako nos dokhan o nhar kamel fe farchy o manysh kaad net7arek t3eebtt mchyt haté psy chy naf3 raby ... I OVERTHINK A LOT , behy bch tkoli bara amel Réo ? okey omri 22 sné , baba o omi bdew yekbrooo andysh wakt bch nawd 1 ére o ena fel 23 sné .. manjimch o manhebch .. NOW i have 2 solution ya formation bts .. 'still idk exactly chnya bch namel' or I SHOULD JOIN MILITARY... IDKKK WHAT TO DO PLEASE HELPPPPP I REALLY NEEEEED HEEELP NHEB NOKHREJ MEL LOOP HEDY!