Life is falling apart and really need advice

I (21f) am stressing about school, my finances, my piece a shit car that keeps giving me issues, and most of all a boy which is the icing on the cake because I seem to be putting more thought into that then anything else. This guy long story short doesn’t care about me and doesn’t want to pursue anything with me, I’ve been sad about this whole situation and I’m just mostly sad because I wonder when will the time come where I will love myself, focus on me and only my career goals and not fixated on men or wanting a relationship. Maybe it’s deeply rooted due to daddy issues.

School, it’s literally kicking my ass, I’m taking this math class which I struggle with and taking another class which I am struggling in. I haven’t had time to myself or to take care of myself. My room is a mess, my car is a mess, my life is literally a mess right now and we’re not even in the middle of the semester yet.

My car is slowly dying on me and I don’t even have the money to buy a whole new one because I need to find a better job that pays me well which leads me to my finances

Due to my job not paying me well, I literally never have any money left in my account after paying for bills. Currently looking for a better one but this is so exhausting for me. I do Uber eats from here and there but I try to dedicate most of my time to doing my studies.

My life is falling apart in front of my eyes and I don’t know how to handle it. I make jokes about suicide but like am I really joking.