Please tell me it gets better

Hi there, I’ve gone through a tremendous amount of trauma. I have bpd, cptsd, autism and depression/anxiety issues. I am a 27 year old woman. Going through a divorce and a possible relationship break up also.

I am struggling, but I am always struggling. I’m thinking of ending things. Not the first or even the 100th time thinking of this. But I can’t do this anymore. I can’t live day to day like this. I’m not living I am SURVIVING. It’s a fight for my life every day. I don’t want to live to be in survival mode everyday.

Please tell me it gets better. I use to feel bad for my family and friends when I’d finally have the balls to do it. But now I don’t care. The thought of this plagues me, I don’t want to survive anymore.