More of a rant, less of a confession?

20 F. Never dated, never fucked. Not surprising in a Tier 2 Indian city of course, just setting the context. I'm huge into love, one man for a lifetime kinda girl and maybe thats why I haven't found anyone yet but good lord sometimes I just want to be fucked. Hard. Lusted for. Desired. Craved. Everything that goes against the feminist principles I'm all out for. Maybe thats why the anonymous sluttery here feels good. As morally grey it is, it satiates that morally grey part of me. And I am slowly growing to not fight it as much anymore. Cant deny, it feels good. Oh-so-good.