Someone please explain..😅

So I’ve been having what I believe are panic attacks/more physical symptoms of anxiety, even when there’s no obvious stressors that I can point out. I am in the process of seeing a cardiologist and having all of those tests done, but as per my 2 ER trips recently, my blood work and ECGS are great. I do believe it’s anxiety related because when I have a “panic attack” it responds fairly well to things like journaling, positive thoughts, cold cloth or ice pack on sternum, and if needed a little Ativan.

All of this aside, I am having such a hard time figuring out just how this happens. For example, I had a relatively good day, felt ok, then suddenly a couple of hours ago my HR started creeping up, it’s elevated but staying fairly steady, and as much as I try to not think about it, it’s sort of hard, but I think the more I acknowledge it the more present it seems.

I guess I’m just looking for reassurance of some kind , that maybe I am subconsciously worried about _____, or about having another panic attack, so even if it’s not the first thought in my mind, it’s still lurking somewhere in there and in turn causing my panic and anxiety symptoms. I don’t want to resort to taking such strong meds but the relief I feel when I do is tempting me right now.