My mother physically abused me

I woke up a bit late this morning at about 8:15 am. My mom hates it when I wake up post 8am. She didn't say anything an just stared at me when I woke up. After taking a shower and praying she goes "I know you didn't eat your dinner last night. God will see what's gonna happen to you". For context, she had gone out last night for some work and I was home alone. So I made dinner for myself and I ate.

I told her, "I actually ate dinner last night. Idk how to prove it to you, because I washed all the utensils after dinner." She says, "how dare you back answer me? I'll slap your face". I said, "I'm literally 20 years old, how can you think of hitting me?" And that's all I said

She slapped me right across my face. Then she made a fist and hit my head. And slapped the left side of my face. I started bleeding on the left side and I screamed. She said the neighbours will hear, stop screaming. So I stopped. Then she pulled my hair really hard for which I screamed again because it was really painful. So she hit me again. Then she went and brought a cricket bat and slammed it against my upper arms and hands. So I pushed her and said, "please stop hitting me". She said, "how dare you hit me?" And proceeded to slap me again and dig her nails in my arm.

I ran to my room and locked myself because I wanted to cry. I was in there for 15 minutes until she came and told, "I'm very sorry. Idk what happens to me in fits of rage". To which I told her, "I cannot be your punch bag when you're angry. 2 years ago bhaiyya almost strangled me to death because you got angry and asked him to do it." For which she got angry again and proceeded to twist my lips and punch my head again. I started crying. Now she's telling me, she's not gonna fund my education.

Tbh; she's always been abusive. 2 years ago she told me she wished I got raped some day. I can't tell this to anyone because people I'm close to will think low of her. I'm so sorry about this rant.