Mothers

I wasn’t prepared for how isolating becoming a new mom would be. And at the same time becoming part of a tribe that is all mothers that understand… I’ve never felt more alone and overwhelmed in my life. I’m basically a married single mother. My husband works long hours, wakes up 4:30am to get ready for work and comes home 5:30pm. I take on all the nights and days myself with seldom breaks for self care. Before having our baby we discussed how things will be and said he’d do this that. Well that’s all on me. I have no support system here they’re all the way on the other side of the country. And the ones here including my husband don’t understand how hard this transition has been, the sleep deprivation, not getting why the housework isn’t being done like before. Sometimes I think how does no one here understand I’m only 7 weeks post partum coming back to myself after c section?? Only highlights that I’m failing as a stay home wife not realizing I’ve only been trying to survive these past weeks and doing it entirely on my own. I just want to cry and broke down today. I don’t know why I’m writing this other than I think I just need to get it out somewhere and out of me