I hate who I've become

I'm 3.5 months PP.. I love my LO so dang much. I love being her mum and I love seeing my husband be her father.

But my god, who have I become? I feel constantly irritable and frustrated. I don't feel like myself. Snark and nastiness comes out of my mouth with ease. Like I don't even skip a beat, it just comes out and then I'm left wondering who that woman was that just said that horrible thing to the person she loves.

I'm not fun anymore. Everything I do, think, talk about is my LO. Her wake windows, her feeds, her development, hell, even her poop. I'm in a constant state of worry. Is she getting enough tummy time? Is her head shape wonky? She's gassy and upset, did I eat something that upset her?

I don't recognise myself. I used to take such pride in my appearance. And now it's tough to find/make the time to shower or eat.

I love being her mum, I really do. She's the sweetest, happiest, funniest little girl. And I'm just... I have no idea anymore.

I don't really know what I'm looking for with this post. If you made it this far, thanks for reading.