I just want to talk with you
Hello, everyone.
I feel so lonely.
I woke up today, saw the news, and thought that maybe now the Dutch people (and not only them) would understand everything, that they would feel ashamed for allowing a repeat of the tragedy of Kristallnacht against the Jews. I went to subreddit related to Netherlands and saw morning posts about the sea at dawn and other peaceful things. Nothing about the pogrom. I wrote a post, and you know what? It was silently deleted. I didn’t even get a notification saying my post violated any subreddit rules - it was just deleted without a word.
I am a Russian Jew. I fled Russia because of the war, found a job in Israel, and then lost it again because of the war in Israel. Now I am here alone in Portugal, where there are very few Jews, and I have nothing. I’m just waiting for a temporary residence permit and trying not to go crazy from the news and from my current life.
I used to communicate mostly with Russian speakers, as Russian is my native language, but none of them have reached out to me about what happened in Amsterdam. Nobody cares. The Dutch don’t seem to care either. They go to the Anne Frank museum, but they don’t understand that if the state of Israel had existed THEN, Anne would still be alive. The world doesn’t like living Jews, they like dead Jews.
I’ve decided that from now on, I only want to communicate and make friends with Jews, regardless of what language they speak, where they’re from, or what their views are. We need to stick together, because the world is hostile to us.
P.S. Look at the photo shoot my friend did for me in Israel… wasn’t it great?
Am Israel Chai.
