08 January 2025 , 02:31 AM... I Quit.

The books i bought in 2022 for JEE still looks fresh they even have that odor of new books , bookshelf filled with coaching material and notebooks , notepads , pens , sticky notes that once i bout thinking of doing something that nobody ever did, foolish me ,the three PCM notebooks i made are still 70% empty and i'm still sitting in the same place where i dreamed of everything that WILL happen in next two years and unfortunately they turned into three and now looking at three years back im still the same just grew some height , when this shit started in 2022 after boards , i looked at my bookshelf and told myself that i'll use every copy-every page , every inch of paper to practice and when it will be over i'll sell everything or burn everything in the winters after JEE-A result ,i was st-pid back then (still am) but now that just looks like distorted dream.

i'm not even sad or angry or anything else , i'm just fking disappointed by myself , where did it all went downhill , maybe i know or maybe i didn't or maybe i just don't want to accept it , i tried to do some questions and i couldn't able to solve a single one, Not even one out of 30 questions damn. i just starting laughing after that. i'm just a idk fking looser. i can't anymore i just can't. MF i was so confident that i even filled the Boards improvement thinking i will end up in some IITs/NITs.

idk how many people it will reach but i just want to say that - you're doing great take care and dream on.

-signing out u/EvocativeDusk.