Guys I’m so scared

Ok I don’t post on here much cause I tend to be shy asf but Inauguration Day has pushed me to my limit of hiding my fears.

I’ve heard over these past months how many irreparable damage Trump will do to the lgbtq+ community, especially trans people. For some reason I’m such a freaking empathetic person that I fear for anyone who’s part of that community. Just today he’s already declared there’s only “2 genders” and that’s only his start. I know he’s probably gonna do much much MUCH worse. I find it so horrible how people in this society today find it hard just to have a little respect for someone just because of the way they present themselves or call themselves. I’m so…idek.

It also makes it worse that I have such a (I hate using this word but) “anti-woke” brother at home who spews some of the most hateful things. And then he has the gall to say “Being gay is a sin” ok sure let’s not talk about the amount of sins you commit daily buddy.

I hate how much his cult supports him. It actually fills me with such rage I can’t STAND it. And now I’m just left wondering what they’re gonna do when he can’t serve anymore, like who’s next for them to give their whole life to? They care so much about this man. Then his supporters call Kamala the “anti-Christ” yeah I would beg to think trump is the better definition of the “anti-Christ” .

I’m just so fed up. I’m not even on my way to college yet and I have to deal with this ass hat for 4 years! I won’t even know if I could get married to the man I wanna spend the rest of my life with by the time we come out of this. Doesn’t help I can’t even express my opinions at home without being yelled at by my brother who will call me a slur (no one in my fam knows I’m gay he just says slurs like it’s normal) and say how my opinions ruin America. I so badly wanna fight back but I can’t. I just can’t waste my breath on a piece of shit.

Anyways sorry. This has kinda been building in me since he first got elected. The only bright side I have is having a supportive mother who I know will accept me when I come out to her, supportive friends who are also part of the lgbtq+ community, and this place full of gay teens who can connect with me <3 (plus living in a blue state has its advantages so). Also I’m not meaning for this to turn political 😭 I just needed to get my thoughts out.

TL;DR: gay boy rants about Trump for the 18th hundred time.