Revelation: I'm Actually an Idiot

All my life (F-45) I was confident and super successful. I carried myself with importance and could work any crowd. By 30 years old I was making 200k+ with a director title.

I got married at 34 and had kids at 35 and 37. I lost my job at 39 and the pandemic hit at 40... I stayed busy during covid by starting a small business, which has steadily grown.

I discovered that my husband was living a double life at 42, divorced at 43. I was on antidepressants at this point, and lost 2 additional jobs, before I decided to give my small business a "go" full time at 45.

Now we are caught up to today.

Holy crap what a learning curve being self employed has been!

Then I get high, and reflect on how I would captivate a room, speaking on a business topic that I now realize I knew NOTHING about...

I have come to the conclusion that I am a complete idiot, that "thought" she was smart of all of those years, and was good at selling what I thought.

Now I wonder, did everyone see through it and talk about what a moron I was behind my back? Or did people actually believe that I was smart!?

Am I making any sense!?