My experience being diagnosed at 13

I was 12 when i started having symptoms. I hid it from everyone for a year before things got so bad I couldn't hide it anymore. It was the scariest thing to have to tell my mom the pain I was in. I would kneel by my bed every day and pray for God to take this away. My family was going through a tough time. We were being evicted. I couldn't bother them with it. I was 13 when I had a colonoscopy and woke up to the sound of my doctor telling my mom I could still have a normal life. My mom had asked "Is it the C word?" (Cancer) and my doctor told her: "The other C word." (Crohn's) I was so ashamed and humiliated. Being 13 is hard enough. I was an awkward, self concious, teenage girl that now had a poop disease. I felt like things could not get any worse. I lived in denial for the next few years. I never spoke about it. Nobody in my family was allowed to ask me about it or even say the word Crohn's. When I had to go to doctor's appointments I would pretty much just disassociate until it was over. I was never really able to find a treatment that worked for me so I still struggled with symptoms. I never went back to school because of it so I was desperately lonely and overall miserable. I was able to graduate online school at seventeen and went straight to college.

Im 21 now and doing great. I'm just looking back on how I dealt with everything and now it all seems so silly. I made it all so difficult for my family and my doctor. I was so rude when all they were doing was trying to help me. I regret it.

Anyone else diagnosed at a young age, did you feel this shame and anger that I felt?