Can't. Stop. Drinking

I've been trying to get in shape, and I know that part of the journey is to stop drinking alcohol as it affects muscle synthesis. I've been trying to stop drinking, I know that I need to stop drinking, but I can't, I just can't.

My life is rather lonely, in a lonely place all by myself, with a 8-5. After work, having nothing to do, I decided to start going to the gym and maybe get myself fit, partly for my own health, but partly because I felt like it would make me attractive to girls. Yet the loneliness kicks in every night, especially on Friday nights, knowing that no one will ask me to hangout on weekends, so in order to counter the loneliness, I drink.

Granted I only drink once a week, but when I do drink, I go hard, at least for my standards, I will chug down 2 bottle of soju, when Im drunk, I forget about all the loneliness, all the sadness, I don't worry about how I'll be single for the rest of my life. So I drink.

The next day I always regret it, because I drank, I got upset at myself and end up hating myself, so the whole week becomes depressing, which causes me to drink by Friday again.

I can't stop this cycle, I want to, but I can't. I really don't know what to do.

Edit: As some of you may know, today is a Friday, I'm battling the urge to drink tonight as I wrote this passage. Thanks for the kind words, it is always good to know that I'm not alone in this.