Not looking forward to motherhood.

I am currently 28 weeks pregnant, and I’ve been hiding the fact that I am not excited about my pregnancy. I feel nothing towards the baby and I don’t feel guilty, I’m not sure if that is normal or not. Even seeing him on ultrasounds and 4d scans, or feeling him move there’s no connection. When someone asks me if I’m excited I just smile and lie. Instead I think about the freedom that I will miss, not feeling the pressure of a tiny human depending on you. I want to enjoy the laziness and my alone time. The more I come closer to my due date the more I feel that motherhood just isn’t for me. When I first found out I was pregnant, I liked the idea. But now it’s just dread and depression. I fear that I will never be able to come around and enjoy the experience like I should have.