Instant regret…

So i was having a sort of crisis abt myself and identity ( asexuality ) until my mind went like ‘’ you are sexually repressing yourself ‘’ and then i went ‘’ SHUT UP BRAIN, I SHOW YOU WHOS BOSS’’ . But never knew how much i regret doing it. So i thought it would be a great idea to see…. Adult content….. and see if i have sexual attraction or not or if im gonna like it. Also bc i got curious of why do ppl like it, so i watched it. INSTANT REGRET. After all of that i just wanna puke, thankfully i have memory lost so it leave eventually, but still….ew…… i regret watching this and now im asking myself WHY THE FLIPPING FLIP DID I DOUBT MYSELF SO MUCH TO DO THAT?! I should’ve stayed curious. For ppl who doubt if theyre ace, DONT DO WHAT I JUST DID. It wont do anything but traumatise you you ok. And for ppl who did do it. I would like to know how to felt after yall did. If its ok to Ask, tyyy

Fyi: i was sex-repulsed before the whole thing. And it made it WORSE