Pls end my misery

Being white badge is miserable man. lay me off now i feel embarrassed being white badge i feel like I don’t belong here. I am just being used and abused with nothing to show for it for almost 8 months now :(. I hate being looked down upon by permanent employees especially on this subreddit saying i have to put the fries in the bag soon like bruh. I hate going to work and thinking this could be my last. I don’t want to work at mcdonalds or any fastfood.